It has been a while since I wrote my last blog. I wasn't doing great, I still strugle with life and not making my mind up what I want to do, so I did basically nothing more then staring at my laptop screen and play some games and some low grind poker, to get busted or to scared playing and cashing out beginning bankrolls to have a good start to make more. But if you have nothing behind, its hard to play 3 tables 25NL full buy in. I was crushing it do, made 300 US in 3 days playing just 4 sessions of max 300 hands.
But I Tilted it away at the lower stakes; 10NL 5NL, 2NL, at the lowes stake I lost like 50US. 3betting like crazy, bet the flop, push the turn ect and nothing hold up (AA VS 104 ect) and tilted the rest away with the junk thats keeps beating my big overpairs, whatever. Cashout big do with some extreem winnings on PLO25 2.
I've been carddead and unreal unlucky with the 45/90 and MTT I think I am on a downswing of 45 games played without making the money. I mean thats horrible and I must be a fish, I mean I must be. But you should have seen my run on Full Tilt and I keep saying to myself, drop FTP. So I did and went to party:( and OMG that was even worst, then I went back to good old Bodog, the best hand stands there like 75 procent of the time. But not me. August has been a terrible SNG/MTT/HU SNG month. I find it hard to play the fish/donks/idiots, because they play anything and I never have a good read or indication where I stand in the hands. So im done playin limits under the 20US for a while, some SGN are still good and I enjoy playing PLO SNG heads up at the moment.
Im dropping some large amount soon into my full tilt account. And made a goal to reach a profit of 1000US in a week by playing 6max tables 25NL (3 tables). I will not playing it on my screenname, but at my original account, since I have rakeback on that account now:) So I will keep it a secret, hahaha, until I lost my bankroll or made my goal. I will updat my progress in my blog!
I will play some 18/27/45/90 SNG 2. Buy in 26US, to get that I will be playing tons of heads up sit and go's to win those tokens to enter this games.
Wish me luck!
I recently discovered a dutch poker form with is nice! also check my vids on youtube, made a few new ones, look for: art310SR and you will find my channal there!
zondag 23 augustus 2009
woensdag 24 juni 2009
Its going well!
Hi,Im doing pretty well, only I need a job really really fast! I have two job interviews coming up, so I keep my fingers crossed. In this situation I should not play, think or even watch poker, but eeeh! The sit and go's are lame at the moment getting sucked out, make the wrong move or just getting to bored to wait for a good hand to defend and attack with. Not running well on that department, but I keep trying:)
My new home is so great. I have all things for myself and plenty of space in a sort of vacationhouse with plenty of room, seperat badroom, bedroom and kitchen:) And the neighbourhood is upperclass with lots of nature arround it. Yeah I like it over here!
I play fixes holdem 0.10/0.20 just started out today and Im quit impresses with the results so far. The competion is weak and I only have to buy in with 2 us. So that is my major grind for the upcoming weeks ahead of me, when my finacial situation improves I think I keep playing fixed!
woensdag 17 juni 2009
Reality check!
It has been a difficult week, moving out at my mums place. Standing on my own with a bag full of insecurities; where to live, how to get money, reforming my life into a man I never was. I took the train to Rotterdam, stayed there at a hostel. It cost me a fortune, paying 30 euro's a night.
But I felt alive again, doing things to get started by finding a cheaper place to stay and a job. In Rotterdam South I had found a really nice room. But I was scared to be alone I guess and I made a big mistake on the date, I was a month to earlie at the place were I found work.
The last few months has been a disaster, not taking any responsibility to make choices to improve the situation I was in. It's hard not finding your way, not knowing what you want to do. Time is just flying away leaving nothing behind, then a line off opportunities. Its unbearable not memorise any moments where you smiled for the last couple of months. And I'm done. I need to feel alive and live life like if it is the last day the world exist.
A girlfriend offered me to stay with here for a little while in Amsterdam, to get things sorted out and to get a job and finding a place for my own. Its still hard, a true struggle without making money. and that damm financial crisis is making it so hard to get a job in a short period. But I'm hanging in there and just take anything they offer me, but I'm still waiting on the offer:(
However, I made some plans to move to Aruba, within the next 6 months. I quite poker for a while. I had to take out a lot off my bankroll to survive. And I made the rule not to play without having some income. So if there is no other way I must be able to clean out my account on full tilt (br 220 us). I had been verry succesfull playing 9 handed sng, so I like to pick that up pretty soon! And this weekend there are 2 big 100K tourny's with a buy in off 2000 ftp points, and I'm able to play both:)
So I need a lot of money so I can stay atleast 5 months in Aruba without playing poker ass a income, but after that period I want to make a living playing online poker, and find a job there to meet some people and enjoy life!
Keep it up!
But I felt alive again, doing things to get started by finding a cheaper place to stay and a job. In Rotterdam South I had found a really nice room. But I was scared to be alone I guess and I made a big mistake on the date, I was a month to earlie at the place were I found work.
The last few months has been a disaster, not taking any responsibility to make choices to improve the situation I was in. It's hard not finding your way, not knowing what you want to do. Time is just flying away leaving nothing behind, then a line off opportunities. Its unbearable not memorise any moments where you smiled for the last couple of months. And I'm done. I need to feel alive and live life like if it is the last day the world exist.
A girlfriend offered me to stay with here for a little while in Amsterdam, to get things sorted out and to get a job and finding a place for my own. Its still hard, a true struggle without making money. and that damm financial crisis is making it so hard to get a job in a short period. But I'm hanging in there and just take anything they offer me, but I'm still waiting on the offer:(
However, I made some plans to move to Aruba, within the next 6 months. I quite poker for a while. I had to take out a lot off my bankroll to survive. And I made the rule not to play without having some income. So if there is no other way I must be able to clean out my account on full tilt (br 220 us). I had been verry succesfull playing 9 handed sng, so I like to pick that up pretty soon! And this weekend there are 2 big 100K tourny's with a buy in off 2000 ftp points, and I'm able to play both:)
So I need a lot of money so I can stay atleast 5 months in Aruba without playing poker ass a income, but after that period I want to make a living playing online poker, and find a job there to meet some people and enjoy life!
Keep it up!
dinsdag 2 juni 2009
Reckless mind get busted!
Im so done with cash games, there is this dumm voice in me that tells me to play on and on, taking some chances at higher limits, play 4 tables at the same time. When im playing bad I miss all my hands, get 8, 3 outered all the time and im loosing flips like I am way behind VS AK with KK, AQ vs QQ the ace keeping hitting the board.
Im loosing it, big time. I call all the preflop raises on the SB/BB no matter what I have, and feel the need to suck out some one, just to win one freaking hand! My agression rate is abnormal and some smart guys pick that up and slowplay me where I bluff raise all in at the river.
Then I play some sit and go's but that is getting even worst. I play 3 13us turbo 9 handed sng and I am all in evry hand. I end up getting in 9th place twice and the other one I end up at 7 spot. I move to a higher 60us sng 6 handed and get sucked out, with a set of tens VS open ended str draw and flush draw KQh. I loose.
And there I have it dropping half off my bankroll, with a total lose of nearly 400US. I feel sick, embarist and unsecure hitting the tables once again. There is no controle in No Limit Holdem and I get this feeling I have my good days, but im swinging so hard. It's a shortterm luck factor that will kill me in the long run without a shadow off a doubt.
The next day I changed my mind and from now on I will only play 18/27/45/90 man sng. I withdrawed 200us to punish me for the crapy play. And I won arround 320 US. So thats for sure the game I need to play and my best game to be honnest. Im no cash game player, except on bodog because the competion is so weak.
Main goals for June: WIN, WIN, WIN, WIN, hahahahaha...
45 sng buy in 11/26US
90KO sng buy in 13/26
27 sng buy in 6,50/11/26
Grinding it up to a 1000 us within the next 2 weeks. Im taking the day off today......
Good luck at the tables!
zaterdag 30 mei 2009
Cashgames only, from 25-05-09
Check: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SxC8ae5is6g
Comments hand 2 and 3:
Comment on hand 2 and 3:
Lets make one thing verry clear, Im not saying or suggesting that I am the best NHL player there is. And I only show the hands that are debatable or where I got lucky. I think in one of my earlier vids I showing some skill (25NL Session verry good).
But I disagree the hands I played (TT and KQo). TT in the BB. The CO is a loose player and he makes the correct preflopraise with JJ. Now if the SB folded, I just flat called, but since SB called the preflopraise I wanted to know where my TT stood, so I double the pot. To get in a heads up situation or taking the pot preflop.
I saw CO player playing a few hands before and I know he is pretty loose opening hands like 10J QJ KJ KQ A10 AJ at best. I think by him just calling my 3-bet (double the pot bet) I put him on low pocked pair or the hands I mentioned above. In that chase my TT are 60/40 ahead.
I'm sure he would have pushed AA, KK, QQ, AK. Okay I get lucky hitting the one outer on the flop, but overall it isn't a bad play against some type of players. And I had some equity to fold on a all in push pf or postflop, and I punished the limper. Not a standard play, but sometimes you know you have an edge.
KQ, in early postion some dumm ass just mini bet like some fixed holdem player. And get 3 callers. Well Im realy sorry but a mini raise from EP? My postion in the BB is the worst postion there is, and thats why I make the 3-bet preflop more as a squeezeplay and getting some value for the hand im holding, to get people out of tha hand and play a bigger pot with less opponents.
The mini raise looked weak to begin with, and I know im behind vs small pocked pairs but its just a flip. And again I want find out were I stand, and I think its wrong to just flat call with so many players in the pot. I wasn't happy do, with the all in push from the button, but since the orginal preflop raiser was deep enough I think its justified to make that call, but its borderline.
Comments hand 2 and 3:
Comment on hand 2 and 3:
Lets make one thing verry clear, Im not saying or suggesting that I am the best NHL player there is. And I only show the hands that are debatable or where I got lucky. I think in one of my earlier vids I showing some skill (25NL Session verry good).
But I disagree the hands I played (TT and KQo). TT in the BB. The CO is a loose player and he makes the correct preflopraise with JJ. Now if the SB folded, I just flat called, but since SB called the preflopraise I wanted to know where my TT stood, so I double the pot. To get in a heads up situation or taking the pot preflop.
I saw CO player playing a few hands before and I know he is pretty loose opening hands like 10J QJ KJ KQ A10 AJ at best. I think by him just calling my 3-bet (double the pot bet) I put him on low pocked pair or the hands I mentioned above. In that chase my TT are 60/40 ahead.
I'm sure he would have pushed AA, KK, QQ, AK. Okay I get lucky hitting the one outer on the flop, but overall it isn't a bad play against some type of players. And I had some equity to fold on a all in push pf or postflop, and I punished the limper. Not a standard play, but sometimes you know you have an edge.
KQ, in early postion some dumm ass just mini bet like some fixed holdem player. And get 3 callers. Well Im realy sorry but a mini raise from EP? My postion in the BB is the worst postion there is, and thats why I make the 3-bet preflop more as a squeezeplay and getting some value for the hand im holding, to get people out of tha hand and play a bigger pot with less opponents.
The mini raise looked weak to begin with, and I know im behind vs small pocked pairs but its just a flip. And again I want find out were I stand, and I think its wrong to just flat call with so many players in the pot. I wasn't happy do, with the all in push from the button, but since the orginal preflop raiser was deep enough I think its justified to make that call, but its borderline.
woensdag 27 mei 2009
Im done playing cash games!
Well I did my best but I dont run as good as I expected to be. Ending up with a profit, as you can see in the graphics. All variants and all limits included playing holdem at full tilt. I made a little run also with stud high, but pretty close wrecked it by playing Razz, still have a lot to do to improve that particular game!The resluts looks nice but as I mentioned in my earlier post before I was tilting and playing over my head in limits where I have no bankroll to even consider playing them. So I was lucky. I admidd, its a fact! Currently I have no job and no income. I have this struggle that im still unsure what to do with my life and im freaking 30 years old.
However, I'm done for a while playing cash games. But I will play more tourny's in with the last few days I feel I really improved much by winning a lot. See http://www.officialpokerrankings.com/fulltiltpoker/Chanceless/poker/results/5361469ECCF44914BFED66180E3AA991.html?t=2
Im doing really well:)
I withdrawed 600 US today from my ftp account, and still have a bankroll of 265 US on ftp, and transfered 110 US to my bodog account. Starting last week with 20 us on bodog, made it up to 205 US in a few days, tranfered it to ftp and made a total amount this week off: 975 US. But again there where to many times I risked it all, and sometimes it all comes down to one sigle hand, the one I won and from there to be abble to achieve this rollar coast:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_-RRDZPTjl0
I will post all about my adventures as a strickly tourny player only (dont think I can leave the cash games alone, but im planning it).
Thanks for reading
No controle, there just nummers on the screen.
Pfff Im feeling so unsatisfied playing poker at the moment, and run so horrible. Im just tilting it away and when I risk it all I get freaking lucky by playing 26us 35K rebuy tourny, and made it to 15 spot (I had a massive 1/2 chiplead when tables diveded in two and got unlucky but the other move I made was so bad) So just a 225 us credit to my account (place 1 recieved 8500 US, 2. 5400 3. 4400 4. 2988) So I totaly messed up.
With the other money still left I played a 55us sng. was total domenating the table and there where 4 players there that should not play poker at all, luckly for me. With a 11K stake I was abble to give them all to the winnar, bad heads up play and to way to tired to play anyway, brought me back to a bankroll of 375 US.
I started bad again yesterday, full tilts freaking hates me! And I tilt 5 buy ins unnecessary away with hands like 52o. Then when I took a break and came back with a fresh mind I killed it and managed to make a nice profit and see my bankroll grow to 455 US. But freaking pokertablerankings did not track that session:(
Today I'm wondering arround how to build my bankroll. I use since 3 days holdem manager and I can see Im leaking to much money on the BB Quit massive to be honnest with 3 times TT en one time AK, but offcourse I loose them all So I think I should lower my 3 bets in that spot and just fold TT from now on, horrible hand!
Im to tired to play but cant resist to play one table 50NL with a buy in of 11 US. Im getting 99 at the button, preflop raise it get called, hit my set on the flop and got beated by runner runner flush. After a few more suckouts, im moving up to the 100NL game and loose two buy ins within 2 min, or so.
I never played higher then 1/2, 200NL. But im so freaking annoyed for all the crap full tilt is putting me through, or atleast convinsed myself holding that though to be true.
However im not that bad off with still a bankroll of 371 US, but there I am playing with a 80 dollar buy in at a 2/4, 400NL table and it took 5 hands, to first double it and then double the double. leaving the table with 608 US in my bankroll.
But hell im such a donk, such a fish with no discipline and major tilting issues! Im not happy the way I play, but starting with just 20 US deposit last thursday, there isn't much to risk and it has been a hell of a roller coaster. I need structure and good BRM!!
With the other money still left I played a 55us sng. was total domenating the table and there where 4 players there that should not play poker at all, luckly for me. With a 11K stake I was abble to give them all to the winnar, bad heads up play and to way to tired to play anyway, brought me back to a bankroll of 375 US.
I started bad again yesterday, full tilts freaking hates me! And I tilt 5 buy ins unnecessary away with hands like 52o. Then when I took a break and came back with a fresh mind I killed it and managed to make a nice profit and see my bankroll grow to 455 US. But freaking pokertablerankings did not track that session:(
Today I'm wondering arround how to build my bankroll. I use since 3 days holdem manager and I can see Im leaking to much money on the BB Quit massive to be honnest with 3 times TT en one time AK, but offcourse I loose them all So I think I should lower my 3 bets in that spot and just fold TT from now on, horrible hand!
Im to tired to play but cant resist to play one table 50NL with a buy in of 11 US. Im getting 99 at the button, preflop raise it get called, hit my set on the flop and got beated by runner runner flush. After a few more suckouts, im moving up to the 100NL game and loose two buy ins within 2 min, or so.
I never played higher then 1/2, 200NL. But im so freaking annoyed for all the crap full tilt is putting me through, or atleast convinsed myself holding that though to be true.
However im not that bad off with still a bankroll of 371 US, but there I am playing with a 80 dollar buy in at a 2/4, 400NL table and it took 5 hands, to first double it and then double the double. leaving the table with 608 US in my bankroll.
But hell im such a donk, such a fish with no discipline and major tilting issues! Im not happy the way I play, but starting with just 20 US deposit last thursday, there isn't much to risk and it has been a hell of a roller coaster. I need structure and good BRM!!
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